FOR THE NEXT FIVE YEARS

I am so damn angry and hurt right now. My husband got sentenced to five years in court today and I was not even there for him because I was supposed to be in school. That is where I would have been had my paycheck not been screwed up. Somebody told a white lie and cause me to not get my check, so not only do I have deal with the reality of losing my husband, I am flat BROKE too! I am not meant to be happy because every time I even experience a little bit of happiness, it is snatched away from me. When I am doing good in one place, something else comes up and makes me miserable and seems that every body else in the world is so fucking happy. Why in the hell is that? I am starting to believe that I am cursed and marked for bad things to happen to me. I am always the one to suffer the worst and I am sick of it I want happiness on this earth because I deserve it. I do not break the law, I am kind to everyone and I try to help everybody the best that I can. I love my husband with all my heart and I do not even know what I am going to do without him for the next five years. I need him and he needs me, why can't they see that? I love God, but I think He hates me. I guess I have to go and prepare myself to be lonely for five years. I just can't believe this! Will I ever catch a break?

Chris Brown-Guilty until proven Innocent!

I am pretty sure that everyone has had their own earful of the seven million versions of the truth about the Chris Brown-Rhianna incident. I have not used any of my other sites to display my public opinion, which is quite different than some of the common ones.

In my eyes, everyone needs to step back and take a deep breath. Chris Brown is being crucified in the media and his life is being ripped apart over a publicly destroyed incident. First of all, I want to say that it takes a big man to step up and apologize to his fans for his disgrace in their eyes. The next issue I have is that nobody was there and nobody, but Chris Brown and Rhianna knows what the hell happened. Chris has his version and Rhianna has her version. The public straight jumped on Rhianna side and left Chris Brown in the wind. Rhianna is a lovely girl-I am sure, but the fact of the matter is that all we know about her is what she has told us out of her own mouth and what the media has speculated out of the depths of their pen and newspaper. The same goes for Chris Brown. I am kind of upset with Rhianna just by nature because of the way everybody is supporting her. There are more dispicable people in their very industry and nobody is jumping on them. The public is following the higly paid media and ruining people's lives in the process.
As far as Chris beating Rhianna up, show me untampered evidence and I will suggest counseling and a break, but other than that everybody who is crucifying Chris Brown-GET A LIFE! People fight, especially in relationships and some of the people who are in such awe are people using this public debacle as a cover of their own stupid-assness of getting beat down constantly.

I am going on record saying that even if the worst is true, I loved Chris Brown and his music since his very first single and I am not going to play God nor judge and jury and crucify him for something that involves him and and someone else. Chris Brown-you will always have a fan in me baby!

PS-Everybody who is in an abusive relationship s not stupid-I was reffring to those who are speaking ot about CB & Rhianna but are still getting beat up at home!

LET ME INTRODUCE MYSELF

Hello Everyone!

My name is Layna and I am here to talk, listen and participate in real discussions about real issues. Sometimes I like to geek a little bit, but I am a down to earth, kind and amiable person. I am not always the social butterfly at first, but once I get to know people, I tend to open up. A little bit about me: I am 27 years old, I am married with no children, I am currently attending community college hoping to attain an AA in Office Administration so that I can get some kind of job and live a decent life. Someday I want kids, but hopefully not before it is too late. I am family oriented, but I love my computer so much. It is just an awesome place with so much potential and possibilities for the human mind and psyche. I have accounts on MySpace, YouTube, and Facebook, so I am out there in the communicating portals, just get to know me and I will connect with you at one of those places. Oh I live in Maryland and I was born and raised there. People tend to hate my hometown, but I love it.

I am kind of afraid to have kids because of the state that today's kids are in. I do not want to stereotype, but I do not want to be fighting all of my life to avoid the inevitable. By inevitable I mean fighting to keep my daughter a virgin until the appropiate age, or burning holes in my knees praying for God to keep my son out of the streets. It seems to be a constant of troubled kids in the world. I love children and it bears down on my spirit to see them desintegrating the way they are. Makes me lose hope for the future!

Anyway, that's me in a nutshell-A NUT! I am kind goofy and worrisome, but I love me and you should too! Feel free to comment. I welcome ALL comments!